Our Little Infinity

I have been obsessed with The Fault in Our Stars. I haven't read the book yet, but that will come soon. But, I love the movie. I cry uncontrollably each and every time I watch it. But, I still watch it. A lot. In the movie Augustus Waters asks his girlfriend and love of his life to write his eulogy for him and then he wants to hear it before he passes away. In it she says one of the most profound things I've ever heard. She explains math for a bit, and explains that there is an infinite amount of numbers. An infinite amount between 1 and 2, such as .1, .11, etc. She also explains that just between .1, and .11 there is another infinite of numbers. And then she says this, "my love,I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. You gave me a forever within the numbered days, and I’m grateful.”
WOW!
Brandon and I just celebrated our 3rd anniversary. I have known him for almost 4 years now, although it took quite the amount of convincing to get him to date me! ;)
3 is such a small number. When you see a 3 year old you don't think of them as old, or wise, or experienced. When you see the number 3 it is close to the beginning, and will soon be forgotten by every other number that is soon to follow.
But, my goodness. These 3 years married to Brandon, and 4 with him as my best friend, have been my perfect little infinity.

He has given me a reason to smile each and every day. He chose me and I chose him. He made me happy when I didn't realize I needed to be happier. He is the man I was meant to marry. While we were dating I asked him once if he believed there was one person for everyone. He said no. He then read to me a part of his patriarchal blessing that specifically states that he will get to CHOOSE his wife, and together they will go through the temple. I then got out mine to see what it said about the person I was to marry. It said almost the exact same thing. Loving Brandon, and him loving me, was our choice. We chose to let the other into our lives and our heart. We weren't perfect people, and we definitely aren't now. But, I chose to love him, and I will forever be grateful that I did!
So, what is in our tiny infinity???? SO MUCH!!! We have moved 5 times, delivered 2 healthy babies VIA C-section, lost one pregnancy due to miscarriage, 8 jobs between the 2 of us, 4 cars, and an endless amount of love!

Our infinity may seem like such a little accomplishment to some. Sometimes when I'm with other people and they discover that we've been married for 3 years, I feel like they think less of me. Like, 3 years is nothing. Talk to me when you've hit 10, or 15, or whatever they're at. But, for us. 3 years is where we are. Eventually we will make it to those bigger landmarks. But, 3 years is our current infinity. And, as our infinity grows, so will our love.
So, to those who think 3 years isn't an accomplishment, remember where you were 3 years in to your marriage. It's tough work letting someone in to your life. It's tough work having so many emotions, and not being able to hide them by going back to your house at the end of the night. My house, is his house. My emotions, he sees. Brandon has seen me at my worst, and my best. And, despite it all, I know that he loves me. I hope knows how much I love him, too.

Our infinity is perfect. Our infinity is ours. I love Brandon, and the wonderful life that he has given me and our children!
So, here's to the rest of our infinity!!!